Rooted & Rising: Stories of Transformation, Intuition, and Soul-Led Healing
Formerly the Intuitive Mentor Mom Podcast, now Rooted & Rising is a space for those ready to stop living life on autopilot and start living it by design. Hosted by Tara Mychelle — woman, mother, entrepreneur, friend, daughter, corporate professional, and energy practitioner — this podcast is born from the roots of challenge and the rise of self-discovery.
Here, we explore the truth that life isn’t happening to us, it’s happening for us. When we release the victim within, we reclaim our power as the hero of our own story. Through healing and transformation, we create an inner world so rich and aligned that our outer world naturally reflects it.
With personal stories, raw reflections, and inspiring conversations, each episode invites you to deepen your roots in self-awareness, self-love, and truth — and rise into your fullest self-expression. Together, we’ll explore everything from love, relationships, and parenting to health, spirituality, and the courage it takes to live fully awake.
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Rooted & Rising: Stories of Transformation, Intuition, and Soul-Led Healing
43: Tragic Magic: Awakening Through Divine Love, Loss & Transformation w/ Regan Caruthers
In this episode of Rooted & Rising, Tara sits down with Regan Caruthers, spiritual teacher, author, and founder of Aset Yoga Center, to explore the awakening that happens when we finally choose to live from love instead of reaction.
Regan shares her deeply personal story behind her new book, Tragic Magic, revealing how a journey through success, heartbreak, and self-forgiveness led her back to Divine Love and conscious living. Together, we talk about what it really means to embody peace, cultivate inner sovereignty, and respond to life with grace, even when it’s messy.
If you’ve ever wondered how to turn your own pain into purpose, this episode will remind you that the magic is never lost, it’s just waiting to be remembered.
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In today's episode, we're talking about awakening through messiness of being human and how our guest author and teacher Reagan Carruthers turned her tragic magic into transformation. Let's go. Welcome to Rooted in Rising. I'm your host, Tara Michelle, intuitive guide, storyteller, and fellow traveler on this wild path of becoming. This is a space for the soul led, for the ones unraveling old stories tending to their healing and rising, not perfectly, but powerfully into who they are here to be. Here we explore what it means to live with intention, to love with depth, and to trust that even the hard things are shaping us. I'll share pieces of my own journey, the cracks, the beauty, the breakthroughs, and invite voices who are walking this path too. Because I believe life isn't happening to us, it's happening for us. So come as you are, root in and rise up. And thank you. Truly thank you for being here. Welcome back to Rooted in Rising, everybody. It's great to have you here today. I'm joined by someone whose journey beautifully bridges the worlds of consciousness, healing, and divine love. Reagan Carruthers. Reagan's early life was steeped in mindfulness and spiritual practice, meditation, tai chi, and the power of divine love. Yet, like many of us, she stepped away from those roots to seek belonging and a worldly success, eventually, even rising as a Silicon Valley executive in the educational software industry. But her outer success masked an inner longing, one that would lead her back to her truth, to deep healing, and to a life of purpose and service. Today, Reagan is the founder of Asset Yoga Center, guiding others to cultivate inner sovereignty consciousness response through yoga, one-on-one coaching, and her ready-to-awaken courses. And she's now sharing her powerful story in her new book, Tragic Magic: A Raw and Inspiring Journey Through Love, Loss Awakening, and the Alchemy of Transformation. So I welcome you all to sit back, listen, and here we go with Reagan. Okay, so welcome Reagan to the show. I'm so excited to have you. I am excited to share your story or have you share your story with the listeners. And um yeah, just really fascinated by, you know, where you started, where you went to, where you've ended up. And I really I'm just gonna hand it over to you and and just have you start. Like tell us a little bit more about who you are and you know what has you be here today to share what you're about to share. I think it's really special.
SPEAKER_01:Yeah, thanks. I'm so glad to be here. And I'm glad my team found you because I feel like you're a sister.
SPEAKER_03:Yes, kindred spirits over here.
SPEAKER_01:Yeah, totally. Um, so you know, I think I need to first say I'm a seeker. Yes, I'm a teacher, but first and foremost, I'm a seeker on this quest to embody the love of God as best I can every day.
SPEAKER_03:Right.
SPEAKER_01:Um, and I don't think I would be desiring that um without all the things that came before now, right? And what made the most difference um in my life was my mom. Uh she is this, you know, central, magical, um complicated force in my life, uh, my first teacher for sure. And you know, she just had power that she didn't know how to regulate, and she lacked discipline. So thankfully, you know, I'm my dad's daughter too, and he had plenty of disciplines. So that helps. Um, but she made an important decision when I was three years old to enroll me in a school where um we meditated every day, and we did Tai Chi, taught by a Chinese immigrant who was a master of the practice. When I was a little bit older, she would bring Karillian film and we would photograph our energy field.
SPEAKER_03:That's so amazing. Like to be able to have that as an experience as a child, right? So special. Yeah.
SPEAKER_01:And we, you know, we'd begin the day after meditation and devotional singing. Uh, Maxwell Maltz, who wrote the book Psycho Cybernetics, which birthed the positive psychology movement, was on the board of my school. So, um, you know, his point of view and his research informed the pedagogy and certainly informed the songs that we sang, which was all about uh the power that that we have. Um the power to choose. Uh I mean, I remember years later when I was pregnant with my first son, I went to see the founder of my grade school and stayed with her for two weeks. She was a whiskey drinking, like chain smoking mystic. But I loved her. I didn't know that at the time, obviously when I was when I was young. But I asked her what she wanted the lasting legacy of our education to be. And she didn't hesitate when I asked the question. And she said, I wanted you to know that every thought and feeling you have is your choice.
SPEAKER_03:I love that.
SPEAKER_01:I love that. So that's how it began, right? And that was in great contrast to what was going on in my home. Um, my mother diagnosed herself as a manic depressive in 1961, surrounded by psychiatrists who couldn't agree on a diagnosis. And she just literally pulled it out of the air and said, I'm a manic depressive. Um, I don't agree with her. I mean, I think she had energy regulation problems for her. Um, but you know, she chose her third husband, uh, a man she met in the mental hospital. Not a great place to find a purpose.
SPEAKER_03:Right.
SPEAKER_01:Yeah. And so he was emotionally abusive and physically abusive. And there's probably things I don't remember, too, that I kind of sense. Um yeah, so that was hard to live with someone who could embody the greatest love I've ever known. I mean, her presence changed people. I mean, when she dated King Hussein of Jordan, I have letters from him talking about how she is impacting his thinking about how to govern his country. Wow. Right. So, anywho, um, and I was very, you know, like her, I was um very tuned in and connected. And um, I mean, the word we would use is psychic, though my mother always kind of scoffed at that word because she thought we all were, um, just a matter of getting stuff out of the way. And um, I would see things, you know, that the average person didn't, and I could hear people's thoughts, which you don't want to have access to. And I was, you know, surrounded by what I would describe as dark entities at night, probably attracted to the energetics in the home. That I don't, you know, but I don't know.
SPEAKER_03:Absolutely.
SPEAKER_01:And one fateful day I was, you know, tumbling down in the basement, dancing and doing gymnastics, which was my like safe haven that I would create for myself. And there he was, this entity that used to terrorize me, sitting on the top of my washing machine in like this fiery throne, looking kind of demonic. And I, I mean, the terror I felt at the age of nine, um, I don't have words for. And I just ran up the basement step screaming out loud for it all to stop. And it did, the veil came down. And it wasn't until 27 at a national sales meeting when I'm a junior executive in the academic publishing industry that this same entity uh woke me up in the middle of the night. And I just looked at him. First of all, I was asleep, and I awakened, my eyes weren't yet open, but I knew someone was in my room. I could feel it, and I was terrified. And I opened my eyes, and there he was. And I just looked at him and said, Oh, it's you. It's only you. I'm not afraid of you. And I went back to sleep. And when I woke up the next morning, all I could feel was the love of God, uh, oneness, complete forgiveness for my stepfather, for these executives at my work that were behaving badly, to put it literally. Uh, and that changed my life. And I think ever since then, I've been trying to integrate the wisdom that came in, right? The energetic change in my physical system. Um, and you know, you wake up and the world doesn't change. No, it doesn't. And being awake, particularly now, is not easy.
SPEAKER_03:No. And so I'm worried ever, but was it ever?
SPEAKER_01:It was easier.
SPEAKER_03:Was it? Do you think so?
SPEAKER_01:Oh, definitely. Uh, it was easier. Um, you know, it's it's ramping up.
SPEAKER_03:How do you how say more about that? Uh and I and I asked say more about that because I think, you know, I mean, when you share your story, I'm like, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah. Because I have a very similar uh we've we I I don't want to say the story is similar, but many of the experiences you've had have had very similar experiences, you know, with the entities, with the being able to feel see here um at a young age. And what do you do with that? You know, and it is terrifying, like there are no words to put. And so, but how do you see it as as it was easier? Do you think in terms of like for me, I there was a point in my life where I shut it all down. I shut it all down, yeah. And then later woke up again because it was it was just oozing out of me and I couldn't not pay attention. But yeah, share more about that because I do feel that there's a lot of people today that are waking up, maybe have always had been aware of their powers, but not able to put words to it. Um, I say powers, maybe I should say gifts, and also like when you talk about psychic, you know, I I I feel so weird today when people say, So what do you do? And I'm like, you know, especially I have this business where I work with realtors and aligning their spaces, the houses. And it's I've eventually have to tell people I'm psychic, but that just sounds so weird. You know, it's it doesn't because it it doesn't it it doesn't fit because I feel like we all have these gifts, right? We're all so so yeah, share more. Sorry, I just kind of opened up a bag of worms.
SPEAKER_01:Well, I mean, I I think this is again how it feels to me. Doesn't mean I'm right. Um I feel like the the shadow um is becoming more visible in in the collective. Um, you know, the the forces that have always run this place.
SPEAKER_03:Yes.
SPEAKER_01:Since the dawn of time.
SPEAKER_03:Umennia, way before we could even write books about it.
SPEAKER_01:Exactly. And as we as a collective, either consciously or unconsciously rise in frequency and awaken to the truth, it's like shining a light on that shadow. It's becoming more visible. And so what would a shadow want to do if it feels like it's being seen? Well, it's gonna ramp up and be more shadowy, you know, try to do as much that it can to regain control, right? Or to persist in control. And I think that's where we are right now.
SPEAKER_03:100%.
SPEAKER_01:Um, yeah, so I mean it's not easy, and um we all have to up our time in the quiet and up our time hanging out with the light, the light, you know, the light within the heart, but the light that is the source of our own light, right? The big light, right? The light with the capital L. Yes. Um, you know, yesterday when I was just feeling like it was almost like right on the surface, this desire to cry, like this desire to grieve where we truly are. Right. And I just, you know, felt it. I mean, I didn't deny it, but I connected in the heart and I just asked God, you know, what do you want of me? What what what more can I do? And the voice said, spend more time with me.
SPEAKER_03:I think that voice is saying that to everybody right now. Yeah. You know, quiet. Yes, spend more time.
SPEAKER_01:Yeah, and spend more time outside in nature, like nature. These very basic things like walk barefoot in the grass, yes, connect to the earth, um, yes, connect to the God that you know, yes, um, whatever that is.
SPEAKER_03:Whatever that is, because it yeah, it could be I I really want the listeners to hear that it, you know, um it really is whatever, whatever that is to you. This isn't about, you know, a certain type of religious understanding. It's just like whatever that connection is, whatever that power is, whatever you resonate with, connect more with that because that's where and I mean it's a shame that God can be a triggering word.
SPEAKER_01:It is today, you know, and and that's because of the humans. Yes, that has nothing to do with God, nothing to do with it. Um, and so I try to be, you know, true to that. There's other spiritual teachers that'll say universe instead. It's like, well, no, you don't want to connect with the universe. There's a lot in the universe that you don't want to connect to, and part of it is what's here, it's part of it is that dark energy that's here. Yeah, yeah. No, no, universe, parts of the universe, certainly. Yeah, absolutely. So, you know, for me, God is this impersonal love that you don't have words for, like the words are inadequate to describe. It's an energy, right? It's a it's a consciousness. Um, so yeah. Um, I don't know, there's a lot more to say about almost 59 years that I've lived on this crazy rock. Right. Um yeah, but I hope that gives your, you know, your lift.
SPEAKER_03:Yeah, and say more because I know you went through a pretty big transition when you left. You were living in Santa Cruz and more recently.
SPEAKER_00:Yeah, yeah.
SPEAKER_03:Talk more about that because I feel like you know, when we were talking a little bit, that has a lot to do. Yeah, that has a lot to do with with what's happening for you and and this transition and really what you're here to share. The light you're here.
SPEAKER_01:Yeah. So um before that, though, um, after my awakening, right, and I returned to St. Louis uh from my meeting to a world and a household and a husband that hadn't changed, right? I'd had this dramatic experience, was able to heal my stepfather through an energetic transmission I was holding. He's now the kindest, sweetest man, and that's been true for over 30 years. Um, so that was initially like, wow, okay. Um I immediately got pregnant with my first son. I knew when his spirit entered my body and I greeted him. That was like day one of returning to St. Louis after my awakening.
SPEAKER_03:So he's a pretty lucky guy to come in in that at that time, that energy. Yeah, yes.
SPEAKER_01:He certainly did that on purpose. And so I found myself um very quickly working for a woman named uh Dr. Peggy Jenkins, who had written the book Joyful Child. If you haven't written read that book or Nurturing Spirituality in Children, her other book, please do. I think you'd love it. Um, so I was doing parent education for her, and um, you know, kind of her pedagogy and what she had created reminded me so much of my early schooling. And uh she was good friends with uh Joseph Chilton Pierce. And um he had written, you know, the crack and the cosmic egg and magical child and some really groundbreaking books. And he suggested to her that she check out the Heart Math Institute, which had recently formed. Well, she was in her 70s and she didn't want to leave Sedona, so she asked me to. So this was 1995, just four four years after the institute um set up their shingle in the Santa Cruz Mountains. And I knew uh going to my first retreat that that was where I was supposed to be. There's a lot of reasons for that that I detail in my book. Like I had this pathetic repetitive dream as a child that let me know that these were, you know, the same, same people. So in a few years I was staffed there, uh leading retreats and programs for business audiences with Bruce Cryer. So we would do executive renewal and interquality management retreats on site. They don't do that anymore, but people would come to the institute for that. And then a decision was made to go to market, to actually go to major market cities. And so Bruce and I were the business face of heart math um at that time in the 90s. Um, yeah, so I, you know, packed up the Volvo and took my husband and my four-year-old son and uh, you know, accepted an offer to work there for$12 an hour. I mean, people thought I was, you know, nuts. And I told my mom, you know, that I had this, you know, kind of heart directive to go there. And she's like, oh, go, honey. I don't even know why I still live in St. Louis. But she looked at me, and I think I told you this when we spoke the first time. She goes, but honey, nobody's gonna change because they go to your workshop.
SPEAKER_03:I love that, by the way. I love that and she and she's right, right? It takes a lot more than that. It sure does.
SPEAKER_01:Um, but anyway, heart math wasn't my place. Um, I don't need to get into it. I appreciate the work that they put out in the world because it's good, it's transformative, but it was a stop in the journey. It was a stop in the journey, and my husband at the time announced that we were running out of money. So that meant as a mother, again, I had a uh basically an infant, my second son, and I knew what that meant. So I, you know, returned to corporate life. Uh and I stayed in corporate life for about the next 18 years, um, returning to academic publishing, which is the work I had known, and then you know, the internet was kind of changing content.
SPEAKER_03:Yes.
SPEAKER_01:Uh yeah, so I just stayed in that space. Uh, worked uh in Silicon Valley for venture-funded startups, worked for the leadership of the California State University system for the chancellor for six years on academic innovation projects. Yeah, and all the while trying to stay connected to what I had awakened to. Um and I wasn't yeah, and I wasn't that disciplined, you know. Um, I just wasn't. I I was busy and I had a three-hour one-way commute to San Francisco. Yep. Um, yeah, I was just yeah, I was a single mom. I finally had the courage to divorce my husband of over 20 years because that was just yeah, dysfunctional. Yeah, and so okay to answer your question because there was a lot I needed to say in between. Okay, but now it is um December of 2021. We are now on year two of the COVID lockdowns in California.
SPEAKER_03:Talk about crazy, yes.
SPEAKER_01:Yeah, there's a whole chapter in my book called Madness about that. But anyway, I had traveled to Joshua Tree uh to work on my book, Tragic Magic. And I, you know, I just needed to be alone. Golly, I mean, that was one of the challenges of being locked down. There's no privacy, you know. We couldn't even walk the beaches, you'd get escorted by a cop with an AK. I mean, it was just so nuts.
SPEAKER_03:God, I was in Texas.
SPEAKER_01:Yeah. Yeah. So I um went to Joshua to Tree to walk work on the book, and I always had a ritual. Um, I was praying and meditating. I was probably more disciplined than I give myself credit for. But anyway, um, deep in the presence, and I receive you must urgently move home. And I knew that voice. It's a voice I've been connected to since I can remember. Yeah. So I literally looked at my phone to see if I had enough bars to make a phone call because I was in the middle of the high desert. I did. I called a friend in St. Louis because that was home, who was a realtor. And I said, Andrea, will you work with me? God wants me home. And she said, Of course. So then I called my husband next, told him what had happened. He said, Well, I'm not getting in the way of you and God. And so he made arrangements uh for me to fly out of Palm Springs to St. Louis the following day. Um thank God he responded the way that he did. Yes, yes, um, such a beautiful man. And um, yeah, and I knew St. Louis wasn't it. I was like, Andrea, this just this isn't right. So again, tune back in and I receive Franklin County. I'm like, I don't even know what that means. So I tell her, and it's about an hour west of St. Louis, and I end up finding the home where I now live. So anyway, you know, people think I'm being dramatic, right? That like you're you're listening to voices in your head and doing what it says, like right, and I just knew, and I and I was clear what I was doing, and my husband was unconditional in his support. And so within three months, uh, we had moved to rural Missouri. I had found 10 acres and this beautiful home and um this big garage that I converted into my yoga center, which I call my come work on your shit center. And um, yeah, so I get here, I'm teaching yoga on my back lawn, I find a contractor to work on, you know, the redesign of the garage. And again, in my quiet time, I and again, I'm not asking. All I mean in the prayer part of my ritual is I ask for the insights and the resources and the people to come forth to live my highest good and to be able to make my highest contribution to humanity at the time, right? So, anyway, I hear uh go to a doctor, and it says like urgent, like don't delay kind of message. And I'm like, okay, and you live in the country, you can actually see a doctor, right?
SPEAKER_03:Yeah, yeah. It's not three months from now we can get you in.
SPEAKER_01:If I was back in Santa Cruz, I mean who knows when it would have been, right? Um, so I see him the next day. And what do doctors do? First thing they do is they take that stethoscope and they listen to your heart. And he does, and he looks at me, he goes, Reagan, something's terribly wrong. He said, We need to get you scheduled for an echocardiogram as quickly as possible. He heard a very loud murmur. So we do. That's the next day, because again, I'm in a small town and there's a hospital here. And so, two days from heeding that call to go to a doctor, I learn I'm dying. And that I have a birth defect in my heart. And if your listeners read my book, that'll make sense to them why I was born with a broken heart. Um, and I needed open heart surgery to replace my aortic valve. Not an inconsequential surgery, and certainly not one you want to do at Dominican Hospital in Santa Cruz, right? You know, oh my god and in St. Louis, Barnes Hospital, where I was born, just happens to be one of the best cardiac surgery centers in the world.
SPEAKER_03:That's particularly for aortic valve replacement. I just got chills because it's just like just all the alignment, right? All the alignment, all the alignment. So amazing.
SPEAKER_01:Yeah. So December, I'm told to move home. I get here in March. I'm told in late May to go to a doctor. I learn in early June I'm dying. I have open heart surgery in July. And uh that was on a Friday morning. I was cleared from the ICU the following morning, which is unusual.
SPEAKER_03:Yeah.
SPEAKER_01:And I'm home by Tuesday.
SPEAKER_03:Oh my god.
SPEAKER_01:And come Tuesday, Ralph Damiano, who runs all of it at Barnes, he's the head of cardiothoracic surgery, who was my surgeon, comes to see me. And he'd already told my husband and children this, but he kind of pats my leg playfully and then looks quite like a surgeon and says, Reagan, uh, there is no medical explanation of you. So if you have point less than 0.2 centimeters for blood to flow through your aortic valve, it's considered incapable of supporting life. And mine was less than that. And I was teaching yoga. So he's like, not only do we not understand how you were alive, like I don't understand how you walked, like anything. And I just looked at him, and you know, this might be triggering for people, but it's the truth. And I said, Do you believe in Jesus Christ? I said, and I asked that from a wide point of view, right? As a yoga teacher, I believe in him, yeah, but not the rest. Yeah. Um, and he said, I do. I said, Well, that's the only explanation I have. Because when I learned I was dying, it was immediate. All I wanted was to hang out with him, and not Jesus, right? Yeshua, that's the name, right? Absolutely, yeah. And I just wanted to know him. I just wanted to know him in a new way. Um, so I reread all the Gnostic Gospels, you know, the things that they did in a jar to protect them, you know, just like today. Read the things that they're trying to censor. That's probably more the truth, right?
SPEAKER_03:I was just gonna say, anything they take down, anything they censor, that's the truth. Anything they tell you, oh no, it's this other thing. No, that's the lie. That's the lie. Yeah.
SPEAKER_01:So yeah, I just wanted to know him. And um, I had no fear of death going into my surgery, not just because of the love that I could connect to and my understanding, but in my 20s after my awakening, and I was terrorized for years after my awakening, like pulled out of my body against my will, like like it was a Jedi initiation. Like, anyway, I describe it in the book. But I learned through that whole process in time how to exit my body at will and return. So when you know how to do that, I don't do it now, it's like not recreation, it's just like it teaches you two things that you're not your body, no, and that there's something eternal about the truth of who you are. Yes, so yeah, death of the body, and uh we are physically then separate, we're not in this dimension. Uh but that's about it in terms of the change. And so I was like, you know, praying come, you know, the preparations I needed to do, you know, physically and other tests and things. I just prayed for the highest good. I didn't pray to be healed. I didn't know if physically healing was what was in my highest. Yeah. How could I know?
SPEAKER_03:Yeah. And I I love that you point that out because lately today I've been really sensing that in terms of, you know, when I say the highest good, when I say the highest good, doesn't mean the outcome that I have in my mind. Usually not, actually. Right. Because there's other people involved. You know, there's other, it's in the highest good of all. Of all. Yeah. And that may not look the way you think it should look.
unknown:Yeah.
SPEAKER_01:You know. Though I will say when I resumed consciousness in the ICU, I expected to be there. I mean, I wasn't really conscious that that was what I knew. But once I awakened from all of that, um, yeah, I knew. I knew. And I will say, because I had life-threatening heart inflammation post-surgery, I was basically in bed for six months. And in my two ER visits, my surgical nurse, um, the one that cut me open, um, would come and see me. And the first time she did, she said, you know, Reagan, I don't have words for what we experienced in the OR that day. Oh. She said, We all knew that we were experiencing a miracle. I mean, my surgeon had to scrape bone off my heart for two hours. Um, she said, so I'll she said, you know, I'm forever changed from what went on. And we also, she and I had kind of a fun moment because as I was, and again, this might be triggering for your listeners, but sorry, it's my truth. Um, as I was getting wheeled in, you know, and everybody's masked, of course. And I just looked at my team. I had brought them gifts and and I had written them letters and had distributed that, you know, prior to the surgery. Um, but I just looked at them and I said, if you can't guarantee that blood I may need doesn't have the COVID vaccine in it, I don't want it.
SPEAKER_02:Thank you.
SPEAKER_01:So no blood transfusion for me.
SPEAKER_03:No.
SPEAKER_01:And my nurse, she like bends over and whispers in my ear and she goes, Oh my god, you fucking get it. And that was literally the last thing I heard that you remember for I was yeah, yeah, it's so true, so true.
SPEAKER_03:Yeah, don't put anything in my body, yeah.
SPEAKER_01:Yeah, so um, anywho, here I am on my 10 acres, an hour west of St. Louis, and I will say, you know, Santa Cruz lost its mind. Um, Santa Cruz Yes, we were there.
SPEAKER_03:Well, we were there pre-COVID, but I felt that it had pre-COVID. I mean, the whole Bay Area was unrecognizable to me. And I left California in 2007, moved to Arizona, came back in 2014, and uh it was unrecognizable, unrecognizable. Just the way people behaved, how people treated you. I mean, the economy was out of out of control, but everything about everything about it had changed, really changed. And I can only imagine how even more devastating it was during the time of lockdown and pre-lockdown and after, and still is, I think today. I mean, it is probably not as bad, but still, it is very changed.
SPEAKER_01:Yeah, it's it's definitely unwell. Um, beautiful, yeah. The beauty of Santa Cruz and Monterey. I lived, you know, south and aptos in the Seascape neighborhood. I mean, it was that's where we were.
SPEAKER_03:Yeah, we were there. We were in Benlohman. We were in Benlohman, Bonnie Dune, but we were also in Seascape. So yeah, just beautiful.
SPEAKER_00:So weird because I was in Boulder Creek.
SPEAKER_03:I know, like we, yeah, we were we were orbiting each other. Even at even at the boulevard.
unknown:Okay.
SPEAKER_03:All right, like which is super wild, super wild.
SPEAKER_01:Exactly. So, you know, given that I, you know, that there's no medical explanation of how I'm even here, right? Um, boy, does that just orient you more and more to service, or at least it did me. And so, you know, I teach yoga as an act of service, um, always will, because I really see that as an amazing opportunity for people, and not just asana, you know, everybody thinks of yoga as asana, um, the physical practice. So much more, you know, to it that's probably even more important than asana. Um yeah, and I teach heart math, I do charge for that. Um, I've got this halo technology here now that's really making such a difference in people's lives.
SPEAKER_03:What is halo technology? Say more about that.
SPEAKER_01:So, you know, everything's frequency, everything's energy. So think remember like in Star Trek when you when they would go through that tube and they'd come out the other end and they're all butter. Yeah. So we are in like the infancy of that. That, yes. And so what the halo is, it's um an electromagnetic frequency machine that you can customize and set frequencies for different purposes. And it's not a singular frequency, it's multiple frequencies working at once. And uh, so let's say someone comes and they're overweight. Well, that means they're inflamed. Right? I mean, that's just so I always set an inflammation frequency for those that come in with more weight than you know they'd like to have, you know, they're trying, but um, let's say you've got, you know, chronic digestive issues. Well, there's a frequency for that. Um, let's say you have trouble sleeping. There's a frequency for that. Anyway, I have so many frequencies because my best friend is a product manager for Halo. She actually makes them and blesses them.
SPEAKER_03:Oh, that's amazing.
SPEAKER_01:Um, she was kind enough to um sort of share this with me and teach me how best to use it. So I have, you know, people that come and I just heard from somebody yesterday that was here for an hour, and she's like, Reagan, I slept like a baby, and yet when I first got home, I was so productive and so focused. So think of it like a cellular recharge.
SPEAKER_03:Reboost, yeah, reset, yeah.
SPEAKER_01:Or different, you know, different cells have different functions, right? Um, so anyway, it's kind of like an automated heart math machine.
SPEAKER_03:I love that. I love that. That's amazing. I'm like, I want to come. I want to come do it. Well, you you should.
SPEAKER_00:I know I already told you to.
SPEAKER_03:I know.
SPEAKER_01:Um yeah. So anyway, what what I really want people to understand.
SPEAKER_03:What what is the thing that you really want people to take away today? And I mean, obviously, I want to put links to where they can find you. Sure. To the book, but yeah, what is what is your big message for everyone today?
SPEAKER_01:It's no fun, they're not gonna like it. Yeah, it's discipline of practice to be disciplined, yeah. Um, to show up for yourself every day, particularly when you don't want to, right? Discipline's different from motivation, right? Motivation is I'm motivated, yeah. Discipline is, oh God, I don't want to do this, and you do it anyway.
SPEAKER_03:You still have to do it, yeah.
SPEAKER_01:Yeah, so time in the heart, right? Focusing first the breath, yeah, reconnect to the most profound love you've ever known, ideally an impersonal love, though, you know, work with whatever you've got and and be in the felt sense of that, right? Re-experience the feeling of that, because that becomes the energetic scaffolding to connect to the love of God.
SPEAKER_03:I'm gonna have you explain that more because I don't know of the listeners. I mean, I've known of heart math for a long time, and I would imagine there's some listeners listening to this that are very familiar with heart math, because I think heart math has today, we could say has become more mainstream, but I would say there's still a lot of people that don't know what that is. And when you talk about, you know, um tapping into that resonance of a memory or a thought of the love and the frequency, say more about what you mean with that. Because I think that when a when people hear what you say, and I'm just gonna speak to, I don't want to say your average person, none of us are average, but I want to say the person who's just out there plugged into a lot of what's happening media-wise, doesn't feel that there's any hope, doesn't feel that they could get connected to any space of love, you know, what what would you tell them? How could they take that moment to tap into that? And to then, and then what is it? What would they be looking to feel? Because what I see energetically is people that hear that, they're even gonna just struggle to feel that frequency rise up from the soles of their feet to the top of their head because there's so much density stuck in their body, because so many people again, right? So many people are plugged into all that that noise and chaos, yeah.
SPEAKER_01:They're plugged into the matrix for sure. So um, well, let's instead of talking about it, let's do it. Okay, yeah, let's do it. Okay, and and what heart math really is before we do, you know, they basically took ancient wisdom and packaged it in a biomedical model for the Western mind. Not to take anything away from them, but there's nothing believe in science. There's nothing new, like newsflash. There's nothing new here. This is a very old thing in Buddhism. It's called metta. Um, anyway, so let's all just get a comfortable seat, ideally. And um, if that's not comfortable for whatever reason, lie down. It can work that way too. And go ahead and close the eyes and put one hand over the center of the chest, over the heart, and then the other hand over the hand, right? Just to help you kind of connect. And before we get into the heart, I'd like you to first feel your feet on the ground. Feel your sit bones in your seat. Or if you're lying down, just feel the length of your body on the ground on the earth. Just try to deepen that connection for a few moments. I even like to imagine like taproots descending down through the soles of my feet. Okay, so from this grounded place with the hands over the heart, I want you to take an inhale to a count of five through your nose, and then exhale out of your nose to the same count. Don't try too hard. Just try to find an easeful rhythm of breath. With the focus of the breath being the center of the chest where your hands are through the heart. Almost as if you're breathing through this part of you. Now recall a time in your life when you felt love. For some reason that's not accessible, something you're grateful for. It could be a person, it could be a thing. Maybe you've had one of those inexplicable, impersonal moments where you just felt the presence of something so loving, so intelligent. But just work with whatever you have. It's all good in this way. And once you've remembered that moment in time, go beyond what it looks like and re-experience the feeling.
SPEAKER_00:As you continue to breathe through the heart.
SPEAKER_01:Knowing that as you do with every beat of the heart, you're creating this electromagnetic wave of energy. It's a giant donut, it's a torus shape all around you. This is what you're then broadcasting out to your community, to your household, to the larger world, because energy has no end, right? We have limitations in terms of how we can measure it. I sincerely believe the more that we do this, the more the world can change.
unknown:Yes.
SPEAKER_01:This is how we combat the darkness.
unknown:Yes.
SPEAKER_03:I 100% agree with that. 100%. And I feel amazing. I'm like, uh.
SPEAKER_01:Well, and and we start wherever we are, you know, like for me, let's say I've had a shitty night's sleep and it's time to connect. Well, it's gonna take me a little longer to get into the real felt sense of the love that I've known.
SPEAKER_00:Yes.
SPEAKER_01:But that process of intending, that process of efforting in that way creates biochemical changes, energetic changes, strengthens the immune system. I mean, all sorts of things happen, much less this wave of energy that people can feel, you know, like when people come into my space, they're like, wow, it feels amazing in here. It's not me, it's my practice, it's the energy that created us, right? That loves us, that has an intelligence that is smarter, frankly, than us.
SPEAKER_03:So it's and that's you know, it's funny. Uh the piece I keep hearing that I know I'm um embarking on the word of mastery is not probably the word, but really deeply knowing in my mind and body is allowing, right? You know, so taking that practice that you just provided and then allowing, because we are such doing machines. And when you take that practice that you just offered all of us, which was a pure gift. So please, if you're driving, please stop when you have time and go back and do it, because you will be like, oh my God. And maybe while you were driving, you might have even felt a frequency come around you and you were feeling relaxed. But it then inside of that, it's it's listening for the whispers, allowing, and then, and then take an action. And because we can get so caught up in that monkey mind of the doingness and the clutter and the noise. And then you keep wondering, like, why does my life keep turning out this way that I don't want it to be? And that is because we're not stopping in the moment to be present, to feel, to express that frequency, um, to drink it in, honestly, like drink it in, and then allow whatever is to unfold from that moment. And that's when, and I think in that allowance, you will find God, Jesus, but I'm gonna say God will bring you everything you need, everything, and you're never not supported, you are always divinely held and divinely supported, and the only reason why your world outside does not look like it is because you're trapped inside the matrix within, and you have stories running in the background, and and it's with that practice you just provided us is really a simple tool to start breaking down that inner mind, that inner dialogue, and all of the inner noise and the clutter and the blocks and the darkness, all of it. But yeah, I don't know. Just had to say that. Just had to say that.
SPEAKER_01:Yeah, I mean, it's kind of like what Da Vinci said about how he sculpted, right? Like he just chipped away the things in the way, and yeah, and that's true for us, right? We're divine, yes, all the master teachers have said the same thing, right? We are this unique expression of the divine, and our job in this incarnated choice that we've made to come to this crazy place is is to learn how to embody that quality of love, particularly when it's hard. Yes, the master teachers didn't say, you know, love people only with a complimentary point of view. I don't think that was ever said. No, no, no, and so that whole process begins and ends with the embodiment of love, yes, and um all the things that don't align frequency-wise with that quality of energy that you're learning to self-generate begin to fall away, falls off that also means people, yes, relationships, jobs, all of it, because this is the hard medicine, all of it is a reflection of yourself, yes, um uh like who wants really OF exactly and yet you know you learn that if you're paying attention in high school physics or whatever, the law of resonance, yes, is you know, the energetics of you, you draw similar energetics to you, yes, reflecting right back at you. Change your vibration, change your life. That's actually on my website, yeah, like a section.
SPEAKER_03:Yeah, I love that. I love that. Oh, this has been beautiful, and I just am so I feel so blessed that we were brought together and so honored to have you on this show. And you know, to all those that are listening, just uh it's a simple practice. And I would love to hear those of you who take it on, or even while we were doing it, like what happened for you, what shifted, what opened up? Comment below. Um, but Reagan, I'm gonna make sure that everybody has all the links to find you and how they can get in touch with you. Is there anything else you'd like to say before we wrap up this show today?
SPEAKER_01:Well, I'd love for them to go on Amazon or Barnes and Noble and buy my memoir, Tragic Magic. I mean, I wrote it for the reader, right? I'd already processed my life. Like I um, but God asked me to write it, and I think you'll find hope in my story, and I think you'll also relate to the mess. Yeah, right. You know, like it's not like, oh, life has just been unicorns and rainbows for rape.
SPEAKER_03:It yeah, actually, it's like the opposite. It is, and and that, and that, you know, uh, you know, to remind people also that are listening, the whole premise and the whole context of why even created this podcast was to have people get life is happening for you, it's not happening to you. And so all those things you shared today, and all those moments when you listened and you allowed and you had the awakening, and it was all driving you to this moment, right? And then to this moment, this moment we're standing, is now propelling you into whatever the next season is. And life is always happening for us to grow, to shift, to change, to create, because we are the master creators, which is something we have forgotten about. We are the master creators, we create this, we are creating it. So, yeah, so FYI reminder, y'all.
SPEAKER_01:Yeah, and I'm taking a break on like Instagram and Facebook right now, and I'm writing on Substack. So if they just search my name on Substack. Oh, I love Substack. If they happen to be on there, please subscribe. It doesn't cost you anything. Yes, yes.
SPEAKER_03:I just post that I'll find you there. Yeah, yeah.
SPEAKER_01:Posted yesterday, uh, The Cage We Don't See.
SPEAKER_03:Yes.
SPEAKER_01:Um, I wrote another I Love Jesus and I'm not a Christian. Yeah, there's some there's some good ones on there. Awesome stuff.
SPEAKER_03:Okay, awesome. Well, thank you. And thank you to all who just continue to follow and listen. Uh, we will be back in the next couple weeks. I think this episode is going to be dropping right about Thanksgiving time. So wishing all of you an amazing Thanksgiving, full of love and gratitude. And uh yeah, I look forward to seeing y'all in the next episode. Reagan, thank you so much for being here. Just can't wait to can't wait to put my arms around you and meet you. Right. You better get here. I know, right? But thank you all for listening. Well, have a have a great rest of your week and we'll see you on the next show. Thank you for rooting in and rising with me today. If something in this episode stirred something in you, take a breath, take what you need, and let the rest soften. Be sure to follow the show so you don't miss what's next. And if you feel called, share this episode or leave a review. It helps the space grow and reach others on the path. Until next time, may you walk with trust, speak with love, and rise in your own time. I'm so grateful you were here with us, and thanks for being here. We'll see you on the next episode.