Intuitive Mentor Mom: Strategies for Life Empowerment, Self Love and Gratitude for Single Moms
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Intuitive Mentor Mom: Strategies for Life Empowerment, Self Love and Gratitude for Single Moms
21: Unlocking Freedom: Releasing Energy Blocks for Authentic Relationships
In this enriching podcast, we explore the journey of an anonymous client navigating complex relationship dynamics through intuitive coaching. She seeks to uncover emotional blocks and redefine her sense of worthiness in love and friendships.
Explore the intricate dance of unspoken desires and fears within relationships, and uncover how they shape our connections. We dissect the emotional layers of a seemingly confident individual, revealing the inner fear and vulnerability masked by outward bravado. By understanding the strategies used to guard true feelings, you’ll gain insights into cultivating healthier, more authentic relationships. Tune in for a journey of empowerment and clarity, where hidden emotions are brought to light, paving the way for deeper, more meaningful bonds.
• Introduction to the coaching session
• Overview of different healing modalities
• Exploring heart blocks and emotional barriers
• The impact of childhood experiences on adult relationships
• Navigating feelings of inadequacy and self-worth
• Insight into how relationships mirror personal growth
• Encouragement for listeners to seek their own healing
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Welcome back to the intuitive mentor mom podcast, where we explore strategies for growing confidence, empowerment and gaining clarity for midlife moms. When life is happening for you and not to you, you can be living the life of freedom, fun and bliss. I'm your host, tara Michelle. Let's get to it. Welcome back y'all to the show. Intuitive mentor mom. My name is Tara Michelle. Let's get to it. Welcome back y'all to the show. Intuitive Mentor Mom. My name is Tara Michelle. I'm excited to be with you today.
Speaker 1:This next episode. This is a. You know, I was going to say it's a quick episode. It's not a quick episode, it's a shortened episode. How about that?
Speaker 1:This episode is about a coaching session I did with a client and she was open to allowing me to share because I want to share with people a little bit of the work that I do and how I work with people, as I've shared in the past. For those of you who are new, I am certified in a number of modalities, so one of the things I'm certified in is quantum healing hypnosis, which is a type of past life regression, which is a lot of fun. I don't do a lot of those sessions anymore, but I do have the capability of seeing into past lives when I'm working with people individually, and so another method that I do is body regeneration method, similar to the only thing I can say that it's similar to is Reiki. What I like about it is the energy moves a lot faster. So I've been doing that for about seven years now, certified in that, and what I do when I'm working with people is I take a combination of all the modalities that I've either learned or am certified in and I use those during the session. I'm highly intuitive, have the capability and ability to see future, past, present situations, to read energies, to look at various things going on with people in their lives in all areas. I also have the ability to talk to people that are on the other side. So sometimes that will come through, messages will come through, messages will come through. But I wanted to share some of the sessions on here as well people who are open and willing to so that you can get a sense of how I work.
Speaker 1:This particular session was very long. It was over two hours long. I went ahead and just shortened it. I cut a portion of it out and it gives you a sense of the various areas that we worked on with this individual. She did not want to share her name. She was fine sharing her voice, but not her name and sorry, you're going to hear my dogs in the background, sorry. So we looked at what this particular situation is. Around a romantic relationship and a friend relationship. There were blocks around the heart that we had to look at. We had to look at some truth that was being avoided. We had to look at what would make her feel free in her situation. So there were a number of things that we moved through in this conversation, but it'll give you a sense of how I work.
Speaker 1:This particular session, as I mentioned, took a while. A lot of times when I work with people, I do hour long sessions. This was a little different because of what I was working on in terms of a project and this person stepped up to take part in that. So I'm going to go ahead and let you listen to this next section or I should say yeah, section of the session, and you'll hear how we work together, things she moved through Towards the end. I did a lot of body regeneration method, which you won't hear in the section that I took, but I did a lot of unplugging. We had a lot of removal blocks removals to to take out of the space the energetic field. We had some work to do on her heart. We had to look at how these people showing up her life, how they were reflecting aspects of her and in areas of childhood trauma that she needed to work on. So it was an interesting session.
Speaker 1:I'm going to go ahead and leave it here and then I will see you on the other side, and thanks for being with us. I'm going to do I just want to do a quick alignment. So I was doing a little bit of work before we got on this call, but I want to. What I'm going to do is I'm going to pull up all my unknown resistance, hesitation and interference energy from me to you and you to me, and pulling it all up from this experience today so that you hold on. I'm going to pull it all up and I want to collapse it out. This thing is in my way, but I got to talk into it. Stay over here, okay. So let me pull this up. Not an unknown interference energy is from myself to her, her to me, energy is from myself to her and her to me, and sometimes I burp, yawn as energy is being pulled out, and so I'm going to collapse that energy out and send it all back to God.
Speaker 1:This is what's called body regen. Is what? Body regeneration method? And this is a method I've been using for about seven years now and I really like it more than um sorry, more than um more than Reiki, because it moves faster. And so what are we going to put in? What are we putting in?
Speaker 1:Today, we're going to increase freedom and ease. I'm going to pull that down through you freedom and ease, increasing the freedom and the ease, pulling that straight down and the ease. Pulling that straight down. And I'm seeing that there's like an expansion of expression, your fullest self-expression, oops, sorry. I want to open that up, your fullest self-expression. And I'm going to tap on the throat and the thyroid. Do you have thyroid issues? Not that I know of, not that you know of, okay. Okay, not that I know of, not that you know of, okay. So I'm already seeing that.
Speaker 1:Hold on, I'm going to expand and open up. I'm going to expand and open your heart. I'm going to remove I see some blocks around the heart. We're going to get to those. We're going to get to those, is what I hear we're going to get to those and when we get to those we'll look at removing some of those Cause I do see that there's something attached to what you haven't said that you want to say, that you need to say that you don't feel safe to say there's an attachment to the childhood. I can see there's childhood, so we're going to, we're going to start, I'm going to start there. I'm starting to get chills, but we're going to start there and I'm just going to expand the space and hold the space for you. And so what? It's so funny because the color. Do you have something going on? Is there some light in your room?
Speaker 2:Well, yeah, there's a flicker. Yeah, okay, okay, I was like what is going on? I'm like she's got all these colors going on around her? Yeah, I forgot. There the light is, I can stop it too. No, no, don't stop it, I like it.
Speaker 1:I just was like Whoa, what's happening? Okay, all right, so, okay, okay, all right, so, okay. So let's, let's do it. What do you want to talk about today? Yeah, um, there's, is it relationships, there's stuff around relationship you want to talk about today always, there's always, but that's also what I do, right, right yeah, but I can see that there's.
Speaker 1:There is something you want to say that you haven't said, that you feel you need to say that you're holding back. I don't know to who, or to what, or to I don't know if it's to the world or to a person. I just saw a man and it's like stuff down. It's like stuff down and it's Depends. It's like stuff down and it's Depends on which man. Yeah, I'm like tall man. He's tall, he's broad.
Speaker 2:Lighter, lighter caramel.
Speaker 1:I see dark hair Curls, okay, okay, okay. So when I tune into his energy, he's handsome, he's tall oh sorry, okay. So he has kind of like a. He has like a very sexy, like kind of suave swagger, like he has this energy and that energy actually is a protective layer because behind that he's terrified and this strategy has worked. It doesn't work with you. You see through it. I just got chills. He knows that. It doesn't work with you. You see through it. I just got chills. He knows that and it's uncomfortable for him. He doesn't know. He doesn't know how to handle it. You're different and it bothers him. It actually pisses him off a little bit Because he doesn't get to do the bullshit that he usually gets to do with women, with you.
Speaker 1:I love that you're laughing.
Speaker 2:Once I tell you who you're talking about, it's going to be hilarious to you too. Who are we talking about? My male bestie, oh oh, he's your best friend. He's not my boyfriend. I have a boyfriend.
Speaker 1:So let me look at this a little bit more. Why are you best friends? Was there something there? I?
Speaker 2:don't know.
Speaker 1:He wants something there. Yeah, he wants something there. Okay, was it that he wasn't ready? Mm-hmm, so yeah, he doesn't. Yeah, now he's like now there's that regret. He believes and knows. He has it like Sorry, he has it like I'm going to get her back. He's just waiting, but he acts completely the opposite. Yeah, he's just waiting, he's waiting. He's waiting because he doesn't know. You're happy. You're happy with this guy that you're with. Yeah, for the most part, yeah, oh, okay. So this guy, the guy you're with, Sorry, sorry, sorry.
Speaker 1:Sorry, sorry, there's like a boring factor. Is there a boring factor?
Speaker 2:I wouldn't say boring, I would say he's very hardworking so I don't get a chance to see him as much. It makes me bored and alone at times.
Speaker 1:Yeah, there's something like Okay, hold on, I'm burning up. There's something like I'm going to take a look at him. He has a broader energy.
Speaker 2:Mm-hmm.
Speaker 1:Take a look at him. He's not easy. It's not that he's not easy to read, he doesn't want to be read. He's very serious. How old is he?
Speaker 2:40s just turned.
Speaker 1:Okay, he's in a building phase. He feels like he's a late bloomer in some respect. There's something that he believes he has not accomplished yet and by golly, if anything's going to get in the way of that, he's very determined. He is building. He's actually a really solid human and he's a really good guy and he doesn't um, excuse me, he, he really likes you, he loves you. You're intimidating. Oh, I just felt that you're intimidating. I just felt that in the heart there's something about one though, to him or to the other.
Speaker 1:I think it's both so your friend will get to him or to the other. I think it's both. Well, so, your friend, we'll get to him in a second. We'll get to him in a second. I'm looking at this other guy. He really is moved by you. He's inspired by you.
Speaker 1:There's something intimidating, almost like I see, like a childlike behavior of I'm not enough for her. Yes, you're on the money. Yeah, I'm not going to. I'm not. She's going to grow past me. That's a fear of his grow past me. That's a fear of his. The working is almost a distraction. It keeps him from having to feel that fear that he has. It's a very childlike fear and it's attached to his mom.
Speaker 1:There's something about you and his mom and his mom in you. Okay, so I always say something. I always say is uh, I always like who are you sleeping with? You're either sleeping with your mom or your dad, or both, right, like we're always out to heal some aspects from our parenting upbringing, right, god, I hate it. Sometimes people are like I hate when you ask me that I'm like well, I'm sorry you're sleeping with one of them or both of them.
Speaker 1:So it's his mom, and there's a lot of qualities about who you are that really resonate as a really strong, powerful woman and it doesn't look like. I'm unsure at this moment if they have a really strong relationship. But there's something about his mom that he very much admires because he can look back today and he can see. Today he sees her more as the human that she was or is and not as like mom, and when he looks at her from the perspective of human he has some grace for her and understanding that. I don't know whatever she did, but it was a lot. It was very taxing. She was very strong to get her he has siblings to get her kids to where they needed to get to.
Speaker 1:There's something about survival, energy, strong, staunch women and that he's very attracted to, and so he sees that in you. But there's an element and an aspect of who he is that he doesn't have it, that he'll ever be enough. He'll never be enough. There's really that space within him and that's a space that he's afraid to look at, because if he looks at that then he feels he's actually. What does he feel? Yeah, you're just never going to measure up, and it means hard work. So he has it like to feel and to be all that it's like, hard work has to be hard work. He has to work really hard for what he gets. If he's not working hard, then he's not going to get what he deserves, so he feels undeserving. Okay, that makes sense. I get that. I can relate to that very much. So, okay, the friend is coming back in. Let's talk about the friend here.
Speaker 1:I'm glad you're laughing because it's. It's who is Terrence. There's a Terrence keeps coming through. Is there a Terrence? Who is terrence? There's a terrence keeps coming through. Is there a terrence? Who is terrence? Nobody, I'm just gonna move there's only two.
Speaker 2:yeah, because there's only two terrances that I've ever known in my life, and one is way back when and one is a an old choir director of mine Are one of them passed over.
Speaker 1:Both of them are here. I'm going to ask you to hold that, please, not you just talking like. Hold that please, cause I'm like Terrence, terrence, I'm like who the fuck is terrence? It's like terrence keeps coming through. What the hell? Okay, so the friend, okay, well, so let's. So what do you want to talk about? Let's go there. I see him. He's very much in your field. Why is that?
Speaker 2:oh, because I'm in love with him. Let's just let's just, let's save that part, okay, um, however, um, he's made it clear that we can't be together. Why, um? You want his words or what? I think, both.
Speaker 1:Both yeah right what are his words. What are his words?
Speaker 2:His words is he doesn't want to mess up our friendship. Yeah, that he put me in the bestie category so that he wouldn't hurt me. I personally think that he doesn't want to put me in there because he knows I will hold him accountable he can't do what he normally does with these other women and that there are a few things in the relationship that could make me walk away from you completely and so in, rather than risk that, because one of my big things is cheating Now, I won't walk away from you as a person, as your friend, but we won't be together.
Speaker 2:And so I think that's part of his thing.
Speaker 1:Yeah, definitely so he's also in his forties.
Speaker 2:He's 43.
Speaker 1:He's also in his 40s.
Speaker 2:Mm-hmm, he's 43. Mm-hmm, he's a baby. Well, I'm 42.
Speaker 1:Yeah, you guys are babies. Okay, hold on a second. So that's what that energy is. That energy is like later, it's later, it's later. Energy is like later, it's later, it's later. It'll be later, when he's done. That's like, there's like not. It's like a not yet Right.
Speaker 2:That's what I feel, and then that to me that's unfair, because then I can't be completely happy with the other. It's always a later feeling.
Speaker 1:So for you, okay. So let's talk about you. Let's talk about you, all right, let me take a look at you. So, and you've told him you're in love with him he's aware he's very aware, and is it mutual?
Speaker 2:I. He says no, but I feel differently and you're talking about the best that you're current.
Speaker 1:Yeah yeah, yeah, and when he's with you and around you, what's that energy like? Together depends on who we're around, okay, so when you're alone, when you're alone, what is it? It?
Speaker 2:feels. It feels like we are together, but not together.
Speaker 1:How often are you alone?
Speaker 2:Probably quite often, because we also have another business together. Oh so I mean, I'd say at least once or twice a week.
Speaker 1:Okay, so he's like in your life, yeah, and it stops you from really being with anybody else, because you're in love with him yeah, but I took a chance on my boyfriend and I really do love him.
Speaker 2:Um, but there's always in the back of my head the other person.
Speaker 1:um, and truth, to where is that? Okay, hold on. What is that? Okay, there's a connection in the frontal lobe. What is that about? There's something you're unwilling to be with and see about yourself, so I'm going to remove. I want to unhook that so we can actually bring that forward. What is it that we want to bring that forward? Okay, so in truth, in truth, why did you choose to be open to this other man?
Speaker 2:in truth, for you I wanted to stop not allowing myself to be open and available to other people. Um, and then I fell in love with the qualities of this person. For the most part, he is someone I'm willing to marry. Are you attracted?
Speaker 1:to him Very much so. Okay, that's good what are you trying to cover up? Yeah, what are you trying to? You're avoiding something.
Speaker 2:You truthfully, look what are you trying to? You're avoiding something. You truthfully, look what are you? I mean, I, I think I've, I've always avoided being alone. Um, that probably is the first thing that comes to mind. Um, because I'm an only child too, and I'm not close to any of my blood family. That's a whole different ballgame for me Another day, yeah.
Speaker 1:But that ties into you. Where do you seek family, my friends?
Speaker 2:and my romantic partner. My friends are my family. My romantic partner becomes my family. My friends are my family. My romantic partner becomes my family. So when the divorce happened, that was a whole. Remember. I started this conversation with that, though. With that yeah.
Speaker 1:So, given that these two men showed up, given that we were looking at these two guys, what is the thing? And again, we can talk about anything, but I want to work through this. What would have you experienced? Complete and total freedom in this conundrum?
Speaker 2:This is kind of what it is. Oh, on one side, right, um, with my boyfriend, um, it would be. Get to the place where you're financially stable, right?
Speaker 1:You or him.
Speaker 2:Him. I mean me too, but I feel like I'm more stable than he is, because, yeah, I'm definitely more stable than he is. But in this timeframe, right now, he is trying to get to a place where he doesn't have to work for jobs, and he just got a beautiful job making very good money. He's just trying to wean himself off of everything after he gets straight, right. So in that particular scenario, it would be being able to spend this quality time that I would like with you. Let's do those things together and and continue to build, because he's a good, he's a very good dude um, and possibly marry, right, I wasn't open to it before and I am now. Um, because that marriage anyway.
Speaker 2:Um, on the other side of things, he's already financially stable. He already does the things. I can sit and talk to you for hours. I don't have when I'm with you. I'm with you, we're we're locked in, right. But that's why you're my best friend, because of those factors too, because I don't hold back. If I was to be with you, you would have to stop doing the things that you do, and I don't know if you would be willing to do any of those things, but I don't even think it's a possibility either, because of what you've said to me anyway. So how do I detach myself right as far as being in love with you and just being the bestie? I'm good with that, um, because I feel are you worthy of having everything you absolutely desire.
Speaker 1:Are you worthy of that?
Speaker 2:sure? Yeah, don't go asking me questions.
Speaker 1:I asked my my seriously, though, like are, like you know, think about it these two guys showing up for you, each of them having qualities that are very admirable in what you desire, yet neither being the 100% package.
Speaker 2:And then do you get what you desire Completely from either one? No, I also have this thing about nobody being 100% of what you want.
Speaker 1:Well, nobody is 100% of what you want, right? Like, well, let me take that back. Let me see, let me take that back. There is somebody who's a hundred percent perfect for you, and there is somebody who would be willing to show up for you. And there is somebody who would be willing to choose you, create with you and do everything for you, with you, and even to the point of y'all shouldn't be doing everything together, you should also have your own separate lives, right, right, but there's somebody who would literally show up for you emotionally, physically, mentally, communicatively. They have their shit together. They're sexy, they're attractive, they bring chivalry, they adore you, they see who you are.
Speaker 2:And I feel like I get 80% of that in each person, and I feel like I get 80% of that in each person.
Speaker 1:And that's what I'm saying. So where, where are you?
Speaker 2:only showing up for you 80% In both of these relationships.
Speaker 1:Well, there's, consider, I'm going to assert something. There's something you're afraid of, right. There's something you're afraid of Like it, like it's like it's not possible. And let me just say this too you open the door, kudos, you open the door and you're like I'm going to go feel out some other people in the world, and this guy showed up and he wants to show up and he can show up and he may show up. And he wants to show up and he can show up, and he may show up. But what I heard earlier, intuitively, is that I don't know that he's at your caliber.
Speaker 2:And he's safe for you. Possibly, possibly, um, I don't know if I use the word safe, um, and the only reason why I say and I'm not sure if I use the word safe is because I not sure that it is safe, I mean, but just based off of I mean safe as in.
Speaker 1:That's safe as in. It's safe because you know how to control and manage that.
Speaker 2:Yeah, and that's what I'm saying I don't think that I'm completely safe because I'm not controlling and managing this situation all the way, like I feel like I can, um, because I also think that I could walk away too. Um, and then I'd be back to square one, which is what alone.
Speaker 1:Okay, which is? And what's wrong with alone? Oh, that's a big deal, okay, so let's look at that, because that's that, that's that 20 percent probably that we need to look at that's. There's only 80 showing up, but what is that is wrong with alone?
Speaker 2:I probably. Well, there's several layers to that. Um, let's take the business layer.
Speaker 1:Um, I get judged all the time for what I do and not being married right, um, so that's one thing because you coach in relationships and you're not married all the time it is, and how does that impact you?
Speaker 2:sometimes it impacts me because of business purposes. They are like oh, I'm not going to hire Because you feel like I'm inadequate for some reason, and I'm like education and experience, honey. But it's a whole different ballgame, right? And so that affects me business-wise. I think it's stupid, but it affects me business-wise. Then let's go to the next layer. If I'm doing all of these things for so many people, right, and I'm able to fix so many relationships and marriages that I come in contact with, why is it that I'm alone? And so then it goes down that spiral of things, right?
Speaker 2:And when I was alone, and then now it's like I don't get an opportunity to utilize some of the tools that I I actually um use with my clients, um to implement in their relationships, because I'm not seeing my boyfriend as much Um, so we don't even have the opportunity held to even argue sometimes. How often do you see him working, like right now? Yesterday was probably, no, today's Sunday, right, I saw him Friday. Was that Friday? Yeah, friday, friday was the first time that I had seen him in weeks.
Speaker 2:Because of this crazy schedule, he's having to work right this moment, and I think I forgot to mention that he has five kids, so that plays a big factor into everything, because when he doesn't have, he can't give to the kids right, or help provide for the other person that's on the other end of that, doing it by themselves, right, and so, being a single mother, I understand that too, and I admire the fact that you are trying to make sure that the other person is also straight, trying to make sure your child is straight, you know. So that's a big deal to me, and so that's probably why I give him a lot of grace, because I see what you're trying to do for not only you know yourself, but for your family, you know, no matter how many people is involved in that Right. So sometimes I'm like, but where do I fall in this equation?
Speaker 1:Sometimes what do you desire?
Speaker 2:What do?
Speaker 1:you truly desire, in truth, for yourself.
Speaker 2:To be in a loving committed relationship. Now you understand the package deal that I have going on too, um okay.
Speaker 1:So hold, hold on, don't go into any more story. That's just what you desire, and you're probably gonna hate this question, because I know I do when people ask me, because I get where you're taught, I get where you're at because I'm in a similar place. I've been divorced 10 years. I do a lot on relationships. I'm like, really, when is mine coming around? But it comes around right when it's supposed to. However, I want to get to. There's something about you. If these two people are a reflection of who you are, because the world just reflects where you stand. If these two people are a reflection of who you are, what's missing or what is it that you have to look at within you to be 100% complete versus 80. And I want you to really sit with that and just be with. What is it that they are reflecting to you?
Speaker 1:I honestly don't know how to answer that question when we look at this space of like, you're back to square one, right, and that's being alone, and how that has you feel. What does it mean to be alone for you? What does it mean to be alone for you?
Speaker 2:Failure, okay good, okay, what else? First word yeah what else? Unloved, Failure unloved. What else Unappreciated?
Speaker 1:Unappreciated. What else Not needed, not needed, failure unloved.
Speaker 2:What else appreciated, unappreciated what else not needed not? Needed what else unimportant?
Speaker 1:you're not important, you're unloved, you're not appreciated, you're not needed. What else?
Speaker 2:those are the main ones, I think when did that happen in your life?
Speaker 1:when did you make up that decision about you, that who you are is not important? Oh, that's, that's mommy issues all day, every day um so how old were you when you made up that decision about yourself? About eight eight, okay, so let's look at that eight-year-old self of yours made up that decision about yourself, about eight, eight, okay.
Speaker 2:So let's look at that eight-year-old self of yours. Child, we don't have time for that, sorry.
Speaker 1:Thank you, there's the answer. She does not have time to look at herself in that way, so she's only going to stay at 80%. And you know what? Hey, it's not like we have to dig deep and it's not like we have to go back and like rehash all the shit from that time, right. But there is a time right there at the age of eight, that you decided I'm right there at the age of eight, that you decided I'm not important, I'm not lovable, I'm not needed, like why be here? So what happened at that time? What is it that happened in a short, in a short, in a short? Like doesn't have to be the big story. What is it that happened?
Speaker 2:with your mom. I don't know why I feel like I got lipstick on my lip. It could be just the reflection. Um, well, a couple of things. They. They separated my parents, um, separated in between that time, um and I.
Speaker 1:I don't me because you had to take me, not because you wanted me alright, so I'm going to pull up that energy and that's okay, that's where it's. That's the block in the heart. Okay, that's the block in the heart. It's like your heart. When block in the heart, okay, that's the block in the heart and you're it's, it's like your heart. When I see your heart, there's like this nice, neat little leather like box and it has a little silver button right here and it's like you're going to only open it like this and then you close it up and you open it like this and then you close it up and for the most part, you keep it closed. You keep it closed, hold on. You open it for a very select few is what I'm hearing and you like to keep it closed because you don't trust people. You don't trust that they're going to stick around. Hold on, hold on. Okay, they're showing me when you're eight.
Speaker 1:It's funny. I see you have on pants and you have on black shoes and I see you and your mom is there, and there is this space and feeling for you where you just feel the word non-existent keeps coming up, but it's not like it's not non-existent, it's like they, they know you're there, you're there, they do love you. But you have this experience of um, you're so neutral. Why is she so neutral in that moment? Me or her, you hold on, sorry, I'm just I'm listening to communication and talking and I've got this vision and I'm trying to read the vision. Why is she so neutral? There's almost like this space of you just not being able to contribute. You can't help, you're not I just heard not worthy, not loved, like that's your experience. But there's, it's like a sense of helplessness, like you want so badly in this moment, in that moment we'll just say, this moment that eight-year-old wants so badly to be held and to be loved. And it's as if you're just standing over here on the sideline waiting and nothing's happening. And when nothing's happening, what's happening for you is you literally go into this very neutral place. That's interesting. So I can see now what you do with these two men. Like what you need to do is command and demand what you need and desire and you're not. It's like you're patiently waiting. You're just going to wait. I'll just wait here patiently, I'm going to wait and I'm going to wait and I'm going to wait and I'm going to wait. And your mom never shows up in the way that you want her to Hold on.
Speaker 1:Is your grandmother big in the picture too? In your childhood you have a grandmother that's big in the picture. Your mom worked a lot. Did your mom work a lot? Yeah, and your grandmother was there. She supported you and did most of everything. Okay, and your grandmother was there. She supported you and did most of everything. Okay, I see that, like I see her.
Speaker 1:She comes in behind you. She oh, I just got chills. She's still around your grandmother. Oh, I just got chills. She comes in, Woo, she comes in behind you. Oh, I feel her. She comes in behind you. She literally puts her arms around you and she pulls you back Like she pulls you into her. She knows and sees how hurt you are, but she also knows that your mom has to do what she's doing and your grandmother feels like. At one point when you get older, you'll understand. It's that whole mentality. When you grow up you'll understand she's actually saying she's sorry. She ever said that there was nothing she could do because she didn't know how to do it any better. So she did what she knew to do and that was to take the best care of you that she could. She has a lot of faith in you. She says I can't hear her. You need to stop worrying about these men there's something about you.
Speaker 1:Stop worrying about these men because there's a better one coming. Sorry, there's a better one coming, but it, it, it requires you to go deep into this area and this fear of you being alone because you can't see how powerful you are, and this story around you, this, okay, so let's talk about this a little bit. The story about you and I understand this. You should be in a relationship. How do you have, like, how can you coach me? You're not married, like. You just need to unplug from that. We're going to unplug you from that because that's a collective consciousness that you don't even need to be a part of. So I'm going to unplug you from that and I want to plug you back into your highest and purest self and plug you back into that God Christed light energy that comes down and just pushes all that out, because that's not the truth and you don't have to believe in that truth. When you believe in that truth, that's who's going to show up for you, but you have to get that. You're looking for the people who know that. You've lived the school of hard knocks. That's where you come from, and nobody else can do that unless they're doing it in their life. That's what has you be an expert. You've walked the talk. Thank you for listening to the podcast.
Speaker 1:I would love to work with any of those who are looking to really have a better understanding of an area of life where they're moving through. Maybe you're feeling stuck, maybe you're feeling stagnant, maybe you just need clarity or you need some reassurance of is this what I'm feeling, is this what is going on? Because maybe you're second guessing yourself. I remember I used to have a very bad habit of second guessing myself, and so the work that I do can confirm things. The work that I do can help you remove blocks and get unstuck, and there is a link below in the show notes. If you want to go ahead and schedule a discovery session with me, I would love to work with you.
Speaker 1:So until our next show, which is going to be on gene keys and a journey with a dear friend of mine who moved to she moved to her and her family. They moved to Costa Rica and that trip opened up a lot of things for her and her family at that time and her life did a total 180. So we're going to hear a lot about that on the next story and there's going to be aspects of it that may be triggering in this conversation. There may be aspects that are incredibly inspiring. I find the journey of her and her family very inspiring. There were a lot of changes, and so we'll hear more about that in the next show.
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